Erika Lydiawati Amalina

Sunday, February 28, 2010 11:20 PM

Ahh. Know what, i have not crap for 2 days already. Which is a bad sign. We must crap at least once a day. Oh no, and my stomach is damn painful can?! Pfft. Accounting later! Oh no! ): Will be back!!! :D

Thursday, February 25, 2010 12:08 AM

Happy 13th to us (:

Yay! Marketing is down. Going to have database exam today. Yes, like marketing, i'm not prepared at all. So i'm going to study like mad again like yesterday till the wee hours. But, exam will be starting at 4pm instead of 9am so i have more time to sleep and revise. Okay should get back to my books and notes. Toodle! Wish me luck guys.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010 2:54 AM

Err, OMG? I'm still wide awake? Yes, it's 2.55am right now. And i'm still here, blogging and wasting my bloody time. I'm suppose to head for my beauty sleep before the exam in few hours time. But nooooo i have to stay up and study for this *toooooot* marketing exam. WTF? -_-

Sunday, February 21, 2010 6:21 PM

Hey! Err, i got nothing to post actually. Sunday, boring sunday. Hahah! :D

Toodle!

Saturday, February 20, 2010 9:51 PM

Hey! Haha, as you can see, even my younger brother has his own "laptop". He is always playful. While i'm doing my work with my laptop, he'll be next to me, helping me by pressing the keys on the keyboard and my document will be in a total mess with letters all over the place. So, mum bought him a new "laptop" to replace his old "laptop", which is now, dead already of course. Now, i can do my work in peace. Haha!

I have nothing much to blog. Just any other Saturdays, nothing new. Mm. So cheers! :D

Friday, February 19, 2010 9:22 PM

Eh dear, where are you at?! I MISS YOU LIKE #@$%^&* CAN?????!!!!!!!

Hey! Had Java paper and i was f*cking depressed after it was over! Haha no la. But i really felt like pulling my hair while doing the paper. Now, i'm just waiting for a miracle to happen. Hmm, 50% chance pass 50% chance fail!

Anyway, before i headed to school, went to study at Woodlands with Fiee. Why must most of my friends knew him before i did? Like what the hell? He was so popular uhh? Pfft. Then headed to school for the test. My mind was in a mess, i was shivering can? I don't know why, but it's like, what's happening to me?! Lol. 'Ak and Cher thought i was hyper because i got to meet Fiee before the paper. Haha, maybe that might be one of the reason why i was super hyper. The other reason was because i wanted to calm myself down. It seemed like hours waiting for the test to start although it was like only 10 minutes. Haha, yes i was early for the paper. 1/2hour early. When it comes to tests and exams, super early. When it comes to lessons, the opposite. I can sometimes be 1/2hour - 1hour late. Haha!!

AND I THINK I SCREWED JAVA PAPER. IT WAS REALLY PAIN IN THE ASS.

Imagine, a large frame fall onto your body. Like literally fall on you. The big frame in the room fell on my dad when he was sleeping in the afternoon. Scary can? The glass frame broke into pieces. They were all over my dad's body and loads of it were on his hair. He got some cuts all over. I pity my dad. Thank God it was not my younger brother who was sleeping because there is where he will sleep at night. Luckily my dad was not facing up when he was sleeping. If not, he'll be at the hospital right now because the pieces of glass might have entered his eyes. Scary.

Thursday, February 18, 2010 5:48 PM

Hey! Guess what. I need money! I want to buy new clothes, new pants, new jeans, new shoes, new slippers, new wedges, new accessories, new hairstyle (err still thinking), new make up (not that necessary), new skirts, new whatever la. Could someone give me half of your savings? Hehe. I've been saving but i don't think it's enough yet to go for a shopping spree. Trip to Seoul Garden with classmates is next Monday, so i have to put aside some money. Hmm. Anyway, looks like the balance in my account has not been increasing. Haha, why? Cause I've been spending my savings on my hand-phone prepaid, sometimes my sis's prepaid when i was being a good sister. Hehe. My food, my drinks, my my my my my all. 'Ak "Money money lai lai, please fall from the sky!". Haha. :D

Went to school with 'Ak around 11am? Went to meet Rajan. He's a funny guy although he looked soooooo fierce. Anyway, he gave us some useful tips, clarified some stuffs, and yea. Will be meeting him again on Monday. And seriously, i think i have to get specs. HAHAHAHA. That was 'Ak's suggestion. Even Rajan thought so. Hehe. Maklumlah, Kaka dah tua. Ok no ok.

:D Toodle!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010 10:22 PM

Hey! :D Ur, can i ask you guys something? Can i die now? I'm so fucked up, stress, depress! This is what happens when you don't do enough revision before the final papers. Java is this Fri and I've not started studying it! OMG! Help me! Hope i'll do ok for the paper. No F please no F. Fail no!

K bye.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010 2:36 PM

Hey! Did nothing much during the "holidays". Just rot at home. Study sleep study sleep EAT! Anyway, i'm still deciding. Should i create twitter? I feel like i want to but i'm sooo lazy to create one. Hmmmm. Java's final test is in few days time & i'm so not ready. Allah, please help me. I have to score this time! ):

OK i think i should get back to studying. Ha ha. Toodle!

Sunday, February 14, 2010 5:43 PM

Happy Chinese New Year to all my Chinese friends!

And happy Valentine's Day to all those who are celebrating it :D

Hey! Have been studying for the past few days. Erika is a good girl. Ha Ha. I've been struggling with Marketing and Database. I really need help. Luckily Rajan is free. We need your help! Will be meeting him on Thurs. Even though he's not my lecturer, i'm sure he can help me (: Actually i have nothing much to update. My life has been very boring. You should know cause I've been whining about my life since the start. Ha Ha. So, toodle!

Friday, February 12, 2010 11:25 PM

*The divas for today!*

Hey. Spent the whole morning from 840-12plus in school with the dancers. They don't have helpers. Seniors to the rescue! :D

Thursday, February 11, 2010 9:25 PM

hey! :D did nothing much today. at last, all presentations are over. today was the last, crs. it went pretty well, i should say. i was less nervous and i'm happy! so now, have to start revising for the upcoming java test and the 3 exams. why must life be so tough and stressful? tell me?

i think i have less confidence in all of my modules. ok not all. but the remaining modules like java especially. i really can't get it. the basics are ok, but the advanced! really feel like pulling my hair off man! seriously. who's idea was it to have java programming huh huh huh?

i wonder how people can be sooooo fake in front of others, even with their own friends? have they ever heard of karma? i don't really believe in it but i know, you do bad, you should expect something bad happening to you too. anyway, god gave you the mouth to talk. yes, but not back stab someone whom you call a friend. use your mouth wisely. as the malay saying says "kerana mulut, badan binasa".

Wednesday, February 10, 2010 7:41 PM

Hey you guys! Did nothing much today. School ended early, around 10plus when it was supposed to end at 12? So spent around 1hour in Java class. But it was worth it cause I've learnt new stuffs for Java. I had the thought of ditching school today because i was super tired and my body was very weak. I can't even open my eyes! But, i did went to school at the end. I don't want to waste another lesson. Furthermore, it was the last so better come for it. So he went through the past year paper today. First few questions were DAMN EASY. But when it comes to the last question, i feel like killing myself. You know what i mean. Anyway, had lunch with 'Ak and Cherr before heading home. I will always have fun whenever when i'm with them :D My laughing gases! But, this made me even miss my girlfriends more! ):

Dad gave mum a golden necklace. How sweet can that be?!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D

K bye!

Before someone's tomorrow has been taken away, cherish those you love. Appreciate them today. - Michelle C. Ustaszeski

Tuesday, February 9, 2010 5:30 PM

My past?

I was a very rebellious girl. Very. I lost interest in studies when i was in primary school and my attitude worsen when i went in secondary school. I picked up fights, smoked, drank and whatever. I simply don't know what was i thinking at those moments but i just do it. No, i was not from a broken family. I have a wonderful, loving, caring family. Not so over possessive parents. But sometimes things just happened.

From drinking to smoking to fighting and all, i started to be more abusive. Maybe it's because of my poor control over my temper. Imagine me, kicking my younger sister and brother, pulling their hair, whacked their head with a broom, dustpan, mop, anything i can find. Splash water onto them. Push them towards the ground. And sometimes if i can control, i just gave them a smack on their faces. Yes, you must be saying "Are you kidding me?". Well it's true. I did that. Erika did that. Don't believe me ask my siblings.

And I've realized why my ex-es dumped me. It was not because they don't love me, it's simply because they were afraid of me. Imagine me, being a very horrible beast, abusing my own bf. Whacked him when we quarrel, pulled his hair when he irritated me, spat out vulgarities when he didn't do what i wanted him to do. And even spat on his face if he looked at other girls. Yes, it's ridiculous. Thank you.

I've lied to my parents all my life. It's true. Lie for the bad things not the good ones. Played truancy. Hang out at friend's place all the time. Reached home at night. Invited the kind of friends that you guys won't want to hang out with, to home. Scream at my mother. Don't want to listen to her advices and etc etc. It's too many to list down.

With my friends, i acted proudly, arrogantly. When i'm unhappy with someone, i'll just confront them and "kick their asses". If my girlfriends don't listen to me, i'll just pull their hair or just used harsh words to hurt them. Most were afraid of me. Most don't want me to get angry. I knew they hated me, i knew they pretended in front of me. That time, i don't give a damn about it. I felt i was superior. I felt that i have the right to do anything that i want.

Yes, i'm horrible. But that WAS me.

It's sad to say, i lose friends just because i open up my past to them. They think i'll do that to them too. Abusing them and all. Hurt their feelings. They were afraid of me. That was why i didn't want to reveal my past to my friends. Cause i'm afraid they'll leave me. Cause it happened most of the time. Some even PASS AROUND WHAT I TOLD THEM AND BACK STABBED ME. Some guys don't even want to date me. That was how horrible my life is. I tried to change and i tried and i tried. And i've made it this far. I have a loving bf now. (: And wonderful circle of friends.

Now, i've changed for the better. And thanks to ALLAH, i've succeeded in being someone better for my loved ones. And i'm glad the past is just a past. But sometimes it saddened me, when i think back of my past. How i've wasted 4 fucking years of my life, doing stupid things which were not really worthwhile. Thanks to everyone for giving me a chance to change for the better. Thanks to my counselors for being my listening ears. Thanks to my friends for supporting me. And thanks to my family for their unconditional love and thanks to ALLAH, for saving me (:

Ask me if you wanna know what I've wrote there. :D

Had Java interview just now. I think my group did quite bad. He seemed unhappy. We didn't manage to fulfill the basic requirements. Hm, i wonder how he'll grade us. I'm sad. ): But it's okay guys! We've done our best (:

Sunday, February 7, 2010 8:48 PM

Hey! Hmm, let's see, what did i do today. Hmm, went out in the morning. Yes, morning! Haha. Caught a movie. I know, you must be wondering why the hell did i catch a movie in the morning. Haha. It's simply because Fiee has to work tonight and i have to reach home by 3pm to take care of my siblings. So, which movie did i watch? No, not The Spy Next Door. I'm sad i can't watch that, but it's ok. Fiee managed to cheer me up anyway. Haha! Next movie, Valentines Day! :D

And today will be the submission for Java assignment. Yes ah! Another one off my shoulders. Bye!

Friday, February 5, 2010 8:58 PM

Hey! I'm very very very happy. Want to know why? I'm almost done with java assignment! I mean, we. Haha. Got help from teacher and some of the geniuses in our class and we're done with CRS too but we have to wait till next week for the presentation. I wanted to get it done and over with, but what to do. The class drew lots and our group appeared to be the last group to present, but, it's okay. It means we were given more time to prepare and rehearse before the actual day :D Exams are coming very soon. I'm scared. Hmm. I wonder how i'll do later on. I'm afraid the papers will be tough. Especially marketing and database. This 2nd semester, i'm weak for almost all the modules. Really really. And yes i'm trying very hard right now to not give up. Obviously, i don't want to let my parents down again like how i did in the past! :D

SP blackboard doesn't seem to work. Under maintenance. But it was stated there, everything will be back by 8pm, but look at the time now! It's 9.03pm! I want to do my work! Guess i'll have to wait till 11? or just check in again tomorrow. Toodles readers!!

Monday, February 1, 2010 10:14 PM

:D :D : D

Hey! Hmm, nothing much happened today. Today was Fom's presentation. Alhamdullilah, everything went smoothly. Great! Fom is done. Those that are left now are Crs and Java. At least for Crs, we know what to do. For Java, i think i'm completely lost. I'm trying very hard but i still can't get it. The classes, the methods. It really gives me the "hardcore" headache. Haha. And for this past few weeks, i feel really exhausted. I'm like completely drained out. Late nights, rushing through deadlines and all. Sometimes i can't even feel my bones. Haha. I think i need a massage after all is over. Wait, when will it be over? Oh yea, March. March March March, freaking March. I don't think i can survive that long!

We're going to get back our accounting CA2 paper tomorrow. Heard from my classmates, this time we did quite bad. A number of failures for the whole cohort and only 16 out of the whole 50 students get an A. I think i have a very very very slim chance of getting an A, cause i know, i did quite bad for the paper. I was able to point out my careless mistakes, AT THE VERY FREAKING LAST MINUTE OF THE PAPER. Bloody hell!

I WANNA WATCH THIS! FIEE! *winkwink

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO SYAFA'AT! ^.^

You're a big boy now, so do take good care of yourself

and last long with GF!